13 Days into the school year!

August blindsided me. I didn't transition well from my very short summer break into the new school year. This year there were two significant changes. One is the new curriculum and program design for our online k5 scholars at my school which my partner teacher and I are designing ourselves. The other is that I am homeschooling #myboyzmyjoyz this year.

Well here I am on the 13th day of the school year and I'm taking a mental health day already. I called in sick because I could not work for another minute. I needed to not look at emails, not feel the weight of my duties, disconnect from the urgency to create a plethora of supports for my students and parents embarking on this new pilot program with us. They are fine It's just me trying to cover everything, and be proactive. My days have been very long and weekends no exception. It's been nothing but education decisions one after the other, and then all over again. Starting, stopping, questioning myself, wondering if I can really do all this. 

It has become exceedingly apparent that this teacher wellness advocate has not been engaging in ANY wellness rituals AT ALL. But wait, there is more. I also have been volunteering my time to other organizations, presenting, #TeacherLoveTribe, on Social Emotional Learning PD, supporting my Essential Oil clients ( I'm a Doterra Silver Wellness Advocate for those that didn't know) and doing everything for everybody. Well, I hate to say this, but I like to tell it like it is. I'm going to allow those that I've served for quite some time now to learn to be resourceful. This may sound not so SEL-ish but, you're on your own people. It's my season to receive. I need the support now. I have depleted my cup, and I have no energy to give right now. My boys, my family, and my job are where my efforts will be focused on. So I have one last SEL presentation Oct 12th, and then I'm hanging my presenter hat for awhile. ( Dang I just got my new Spotlight Remote from Logitech) I'll find a way to use it with my boys' homeschooling.

I will be putting an indefinite halt on all things #TeacherLoveTribe. I fully intend to return, as this is my passion, but only once I am fully well. I am a new teacher to my children.  I am learning a new online curriculum on the back end, building a new online educational experience on the front end. I will continue to post periodically about my homeschool journey with the hashtag #myboyzmyjoyz and I'm sure I will post about my return to my wellness routines. Turning inward for a while, all in the name of teacher wellness.

Love,
Crystal